This image illustrates the comfort and intimacy of being with another, pressed up against the isolation of bizar and twisted dreams.
Dimensions: 65”X31”
PARTY ANIMIAL
This is a crochet collage of animals I have dreamed of attacking me.
FLOATING HOUSE
Home holds no permanence, just a place for things. House is always busy, Home has rest for its occupancies. I live in a house, I make it work for me. Home is somewhere inside… but everyday I'm out here. I often use houses in my work to express a discomfort I have around this symbol. I have spent a lot of time in solitude within a house, making home feel like a lonely place. I have imagended what it means to feel the comfort of home many times but I do not know if I will ever be able to fully grasp it. What I gained from existing in houses, spending time with my inner monologue, is becoming very aware of how I think. Though I am always able to have a conversation with myself, I cannot tell you an idea of how I am perceived or who I am in relation to others. I have been my own friend, my own mentor, my own enemy, and my own audience. I am still in conflict with the idea that I have to be everything because it has made me a lot, but it has kept me alone. Most of my life I lived with the understanding that I am everything, until there are others, then I am alone. Sometimes I think I am growing in reverse. How I am going to exist is clear to me and I can achieve everything I desire, but there is no foundation below me and I do not know how to touch.
DREAM REALITY
This crochet human has two faces. A large flat fractured face hides a more neutral, proportional head. From the side of the form the viewer can see that the form is holding the large flat face in its arms, looking through it, whereas from the front the large face appears as the body's head. The large face is simply a menacing illusion, created in the being's mind, yet everything it sees is through the lens of a large flat face. This touches on my relationship with mental illness and the dream world. Sometimes not understanding where the line between dream and reality is drawn, and not being able to see the world or myself clearly when in a depressive bout. The dream world takes the fear, depression, trauma, emptiness or any intense feelings and/or difficulties I am dealing with in the sensory world, and presents them to me as living beings I can face, instead of invisible anxieties I do not know how to fix.
Dimensions: 38”X10”
AMERICAN DREAM
The idea that independence stands above harnessing relationships
The misconception that efficiency has more positive effects than negative ones
The american dream is earning enough time to do nothing